Adoption Fundraising Update: The Light At The End Of The Tunnel

I’ve been awake since 4 a.m. fighting what I felt in my gut I needed to write. So, of course, instead of just following my intuition, I gave God until 5 a.m. and said, “If I don’t fall back asleep by 5, I’ll write it.” It was a long hour, and here I am, ready to spill my guts — raw, afraid, and yet at peace. In December, the Holy Spirit took both my husband’s and my heart in His hands and plunged deeply into them a desire and urge to move forward with another adoption. From the beginning, we knew this was going to be different than the first time around. Our first adoption process was smooth up until travel (then it was another story), but we were introduced to our daughter through a picture within a month of beginning the process to adopt. God’s provision to get her into our arms so quickly made the actual waiting-process fairly easy compared to most. Fast forward to adoption process number two, and it’s been a roller coaster ride. Calls for kids who needed homes only to find out that wasn’t the plan and the direction of our journey shifts. Two […]

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Pregnancy Loss

The #ihadamiscarriage campaign aims to “de-silence, de-stigmatize, and de-shame” the loss of pregnancies. In an effort to stand behind this campaign, here is my story…   Close to a year after marriage, David and I were excited to start our family around the same time we decided to adopt. We wanted to begin an adoption first because of the time and attention we knew the process required. We had a “plan” for all our children to be close in age. We dreamt of little feet running around the house and how their ages would give them a sibling bond–tying them close together for life. We began trying to conceive a child at the end of August 2012 while starting the adoption process around the same time. The plan was for our adoption to only take 5-6 months because it was moving very quickly at the time. Then, according to our timeline, we would begin having our biological children closely after. But just like our adoption plans went unexpectedly, so did our plans for conception. We tried for exactly a year, and at the very beginning of August 2013, we found out I was pregnant! I didn’t believe the news because, in the […]

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How I Fell More In Love With My Husband

He found me when I was like a brittle bone — strong on the outside but likely to shatter with one wrong move. Like a person does with a brittle bone, I kept it wrapped and protected. I was hungry for love, yet didn’t know how to say it. My previous relationship was defined by hurt and deceit, so in response to my man’s pursuit, I lashed out when he came near and set boundaries around myself he was not allowed to cross. My expectations and actions fought with one another pulling me in opposite directions and trapping him in a whirlwind of confusion and feelings of inadequacy. “Love me, but don’t come too close.” But he still chose me, nurtured me, and embraced me with protection. He worked hard at holding my broken pieces together until they were healed, and he found his way to my heart. His determination and loyalty outweighed my doubts and failures, so I willingly gave in to his chase. As we grew in love, I watched him grow from a boy to a man. Sure, he was 27 when we met and of a man’s age, but his heart was broken when he found me in […]

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5 Simple Decorating Tips

I know I’m always looking for simple, easy-to-implement decorating tips because two of my favorite things to do are simplifying and decorating my home. But I also have a contradictory favorite thing and that is regularly changing the look of my environment. You will hear me discuss topics about simplifying and change on the blog quite a bit. Today, I want to touch on how to bring these two ideas together while decorating. But first, let’s talk about why the subject of decorating is considered one of my ups. I am pretty sure this love has been passed down from generations before me because it’s in my mom and both grandmas as well. Then you toss in my aunt who is a talented interior designer, and, with her talent, we could have our own show on HGTV! Okay, maybe I’m getting ahead of myself, but we do all enjoy a discussion around paint chips and fabrics. We all love to change things up and set a new tone for our surroundings. I remember growing up never knowing what changes would await me when I got home from school.  My mom didn’t spend much money, but her canvas was her home and she […]

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Intentional Discipline Promotes Growth

This week, some of my followers on Facebook saw me post this picture. I was in the middle of laying things out for dinner when my husband’s cell phone buzzed. He was in the living room, so I grabbed his phone to take to him. I noticed that the buzz signaled a reminder instead of a received text. The reminder read: “Give affirmation.” This made my heart flutter, and my respect for this man grew even more. He was knowing, understanding, and honoring my love language! Giving affirmation does not come naturally to David, but he was putting forth intentional and loving effort. I learn from my husband all the time. He is way more put together than I am on this journey we call life, and he often has to drag me along. I get too distracted with the little things while he focuses on what is most important. He works hard at marriage — always has, and this is a prime example. In this moment, I wasn’t only grateful, but I began to reflect… What areas in my life would improve if I were this intentional? What goals could I reach if I practiced this kind of discipline? […]

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